"Happiness isn't always the best way to be happy"

Claire is an absolute expert when it comes to a lot of things. She's especially good at things like surviving arctic temperatures without a coat, falling asleep in the middle of sentences, suggesting inappropriate solutions to the most innocent problems, thinking of different foods so loudly that it can be heard and interpreted in other countries, and most things that involves her left hand instead of her right. On top of all this she can understand a whole bunch of Swedish.

This last talent will be ignored for the purpose of this blog post.

To simply turn life upside down completely I have decided to blog in English during my stay in Sweden this Christmas and New Years, in crisp contrast to the posts in Swedish, written and posted while in England. The key to any Christmas break is... well in our family; the sims (2 or 3) and milkshakes and the next vital ingredient is confusion. That and stress and anxiety.

After severe snow related delays in London I landed in Vasteras (yeah thought I'd fly there this time, mix it up a bit, who knows might fly to Lysekil or Oresund or something next time) late Friday evening. I had lovely company as I bumped into someone I went to school with when I was younger at the gate at Stansted and we were equally unimpressed/apathetic through the entire ordeal. Once we'd arrived with promises of facebook chats later on we parted and reunited with out families. His brother was driving him back to Mariefred and to my shock horror my brother was apparently driving me back too! The snow "chaos" in London is absolutely nothing compared to the weather we have here (obviously) and I was not too impressed - until we actually hit the roads. I'm now convinced my little brother was made to drive (he's pretty useless at everything else so congratulations Adde, we finally found your niche!) and might demand him to become by personal chauffeur.

On a side note we also have a new car. Mum got bored of the old one. Again.

Christmas eve now and people all over and blogging about traditions (all of them better and more lovely than the other) and how they "always" do it. I suppose there are things we do too in my family, but as I'm sitting here I can't really think of a single thing we seem to do the same year after year anymore - except for Donald Duck at 3, like every other sane Swedish person on Christmas eve. Other than that we always change things. I don't think mum's ever stayed long enough in the same house for us to ever be able to have the tree in the same place two years in a row since I turned 9 or 10 and the decorations change too. Mum gets bored easily and constantly rearranges, changes.

I have always considered myself to be a very constant person. I am infamous for my moods and the 3 years I spent known as the girl that was constantly happy, were the 3 most miserable years of my life. I remember with such a pain in my heart smiling my way in and out of everything. Every single day for 3 years and on the inside I ended up with 1095 days worth of misery and insecurity bottled up and saved. I was still constant though. Constantly afraid, constantly worried, constantly beaming, constantly confidently charging straight at absolutely anything if it meant I wouldn't have to answer questions. Though I'm in a different place today, and I have people around me that I know don't mind me having different moods I know I'm still a constant. I fall into a sense of safety, a way to do things and I stay there for as long as I possibly can. Despite this I don't seem to have ever been able to grasp and hold on to a set way of doing Christmas. Possibly because it's never been made into a big deal at our house. Christmas as such has, of course, but not the tradition. Not the "the way it's always been" thing.

Constant or not I can look back to this day last year, the year before... the year before that... and I know I'm facing something completely different this Christmas.

Silent night.

Kommentarer
Postat av: Erika

God jul på dig =)

Postat av: jessi

god jul!!:D:D

2009-12-24 @ 10:53:10
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Postat av: lee

tack dsm, GOD JUL<33

2009-12-24 @ 11:13:56
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Postat av: Tobias

Haha nejdå ;) varm choklad ser alltid så gott ut på bilder :D

2009-12-24 @ 12:19:29
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Postat av: camilla

sv: tack så mycket :D

desamma på dig!

godjul :D

2009-12-24 @ 16:05:40
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Postat av: andrea

sv: hähä tack ;D

god jul på dig med =)

2009-12-24 @ 19:23:46
URL: http://dreeea.blogg.se/
Postat av: Michaela

detsamma :)



bra skrivet!

2009-12-25 @ 00:13:03
URL: http://citytjejen.blogg.se/
Postat av: camilla

sv: tack! :D

hoppas du har haft en bra dag! :D

2009-12-25 @ 00:54:51
URL: http://onlyoursunshine.blogg.se/
Postat av: MyzaaN - Princess Pink

ja då :D alltid kul haft en bra dag ? kram

2009-12-25 @ 02:04:39
URL: http://myzaans.blogg.se/
Postat av: Anna

sv: Tack, den e från förra året ! :) haft en bra kväll ?

2009-12-25 @ 03:11:46
URL: http://annaahellgren.blogg.se/
Postat av: ansepanse

god fortsättning önskar jag dig

2009-12-25 @ 11:50:48
URL: http://kinaguld.blogg.se/
Postat av: Pia

Kul att du kikade in hos mig! :o)

Hoppas du fick en bra julafton och massor av snö.. förstod när jag läste lite bakåt i din blogg att det varit mycket regn i england. Ska läsa mer i din blogg vid ett senare tillfälle.. Jag hoppas att du får en fortsatt bra jul och ett underbart 2010!

2009-12-25 @ 12:02:18
URL: http://anjocapi.blogg.se/
Postat av: Hatte :)

God Jul & Gott Nytt År!

Kul att du kikade in hos mig ;)

Nu har vi samma regn som i England :(

Hatte

2009-12-25 @ 12:07:38
URL: http://rodhakensjunger.blogg.se/
Postat av: amanda - gotlandstöis

desamma:D

2009-12-25 @ 12:19:52
URL: http://amandawahlgren.blogg.se/
Postat av: FRIDAHCHARLOTTA

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vad är G1 för telefon då?!:D nokia?!

2009-12-25 @ 12:19:57
URL: http://fridahcharlotta.blogg.se/
Postat av: FRIDAHCHARLOTTA

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ahaa tack för tipset :D ska kolla upp de:)

2009-12-25 @ 12:24:08
URL: http://fridahcharlotta.blogg.se/
Postat av: Michael Jackson - Minnesblogg

Wow! Vilken bok? :)

2009-12-25 @ 12:25:47
URL: http://popkungen.blogg.se/
Postat av: E - Bloggen om mode & skönhet

Tack detsamma :)

2009-12-25 @ 12:29:09
URL: http://hondaremelie.blogg.se/
Postat av: Michael Jackson - Minnesblogg

Svar: Skojar du! Jag HAR den boken, den är alldeles underbar! :D



Känner du verkligen han som har skrivit den boken?

2009-12-25 @ 12:38:32
URL: http://popkungen.blogg.se/
Postat av: Michael Jackson - Minnesblogg

Svar: Helt häftigt! :D

2009-12-25 @ 12:45:40
URL: http://popkungen.blogg.se/
Postat av: Caroline

Haha okej vad bra för just nu går det inte speciellt bra xd

2009-12-25 @ 12:46:09
URL: http://littlemisssunshiiiine.blogg.se/
Postat av: Parisa ♥

sv; det samma :)<3

2009-12-25 @ 12:51:30
URL: http://parisaas.blogg.se/
Postat av: sara - Glitterögon

Tack detsamma.

2009-12-25 @ 12:54:28
URL: http://glitterogon.blogg.se/
Postat av: Mimmi

sv: tack så mycket :D

allt bra med dig?

2009-12-25 @ 13:06:52
URL: http://mimyy.blogg.se/
Postat av: johanna, den gamla vanliga!

fin blogg.

göra idag då? :)

2009-12-25 @ 13:21:06
URL: http://bbrunettbarn.blogg.se/
Postat av: felli

tack dsm! ;d

2009-12-25 @ 14:09:52
URL: http://felliofsweden.blogg.se/
Postat av: jenny

haft en bra jul?

2009-12-25 @ 14:12:50
URL: http://jennysv.blogg.se/
Postat av: julia

GOD JUL :)

2009-12-25 @ 16:01:57
URL: http://juliaberglund.blogg.se/
Postat av: Anonym

Sweet blogg! :)

2009-12-25 @ 17:13:42
URL: http://musicrecord.blogg.se/
Postat av: A L E X A N D R A



haft en bra jul?

2009-12-25 @ 18:01:39
URL: http://alexandradr.blogg.se/
Postat av: Ewezi

Sv: Tack :)

Haft en bra jul?

2009-12-25 @ 18:12:06
URL: http://ewezi.blogg.se/
Postat av: linda

sv; God jul!:D

2009-12-25 @ 19:43:48
URL: http://dinlindas.blogg.se/
Postat av: Lowa

SV: tack såmycket! :D



desamma!

Har du fått något fint i julklapp? :D

2009-12-25 @ 23:48:21
URL: http://musiklowa.blogg.se/
Postat av: Anonym

alllting bra idag :D?



<3 Hoppas du fått en bra jul :D

2009-12-26 @ 00:35:08
URL: http://eweman.blogg.se/
Postat av: nicolina

2009-12-26 @ 02:09:41
URL: http://nicolinadellhage.blogg.e
Postat av: Anna

sv: Tack ! Vad gör du på nyår då ? :)

2009-12-26 @ 02:21:45
URL: http://annaahellgren.blogg.se/
Postat av: V E N D E L A

jag bor i florida, och jag trivs faktiskt här nu. jag har ändrat åsikt, och jag tycker om att bo här! visst saknar jag alla mina kompisar och släkt som är kvar i sverige, men tack och lov för skype och internet! :D det finns ju alla sätt och vis att hålla kontakten på! söt blogg förresten. lyssnar du mycket på mcFly ? :)

2009-12-26 @ 03:18:53
URL: http://pajama.blogg.se/
Postat av: Emma foto m.m

tackar :)

2009-12-26 @ 12:34:46
URL: http://babiidarling.blogg.se/
Postat av: jenny

låter perfekt

2009-12-26 @ 13:33:55
URL: http://jennysv.blogg.se/
Postat av: gracia

god jul

2009-12-26 @ 14:05:43
URL: http://gracii.blogg.se/
Postat av: JOHANNA Y

jag har varit på mellandagsrean & handlat, sen bara suttit vid min nya dator :b

2009-12-26 @ 15:02:22
URL: http://bbrunettbarn.blogg.se/
Postat av: JOHANNA Y

ojdåå (a)

2009-12-26 @ 16:48:27
URL: http://bbrunettbarn.blogg.se/
Postat av: V E N D E L A

seriöst ? du turnerar med dom? sjukt coolt! så dom är typ dina kompisar eller ? :)

2009-12-26 @ 22:10:49
URL: http://pajama.blogg.se/
Postat av: Lowa

SV: ja jag är jättenöjd! :D



tack desamma!

2009-12-27 @ 01:31:02
URL: http://musiklowa.blogg.se/
Postat av: [♥] p u s s y d o l l

Sv; Ja det finns en hel del :) Vilket år är du född?

2009-12-27 @ 08:19:56
URL: http://pussydoll.blogg.se/
Postat av: Crazyangel [mamma till Milon&gravid]

Haha ja det vore ju nått :P

2009-12-27 @ 08:44:45
URL: http://crazyangel.blogg.se/
Postat av: julia/floow

;) det förstår jag!!

2009-12-27 @ 12:03:12
URL: http://floows.blogg.se/
Postat av: elin

Tack, God fortsätting till dig också! Kram

2009-12-27 @ 13:21:09
URL: http://syvaluoma.blogg.se/
Postat av: Tobias

Jag hade en sådan bra jul så :D du med?

2009-12-27 @ 13:37:44
URL: http://grymtroligperson.blogg.se/
Postat av: michelle

hon är så söt! jaså, det är hon?:)

2009-12-27 @ 14:21:50
URL: http://mychelles.blogg.se/
Postat av: d e n i s e

jaa det var den! :D

vem är det i din header ?:D hah

2009-12-27 @ 14:45:46
URL: http://deniseschuberg.blogg.se/
Postat av: anna

sv: eller hur, den är skitcool!

2009-12-27 @ 15:06:26
URL: http://addspirit.blogg.se/
Postat av: Tobias

Där ser man :D trevligt!

2009-12-27 @ 15:33:56
URL: http://grymtroligperson.blogg.se/
Postat av: Fridahcharlotta

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Finns människo till allt:/

2009-12-27 @ 15:59:33
URL: http://fridahcharlotta.blogg.se/
Postat av: d e n i s e

ahh spelar han inte i bandet som gjort don't stop me know eller ngt ?:P

2009-12-27 @ 16:28:54
URL: http://deniseschuberg.blogg.se/
Postat av: Mathilda

Svar: Tackar :)

Allt bra med dig?

2009-12-27 @ 17:13:30
URL: http://mathildas.blogg.se/
Postat av: d e n i s e

du kan dina grejer du ;)

2009-12-27 @ 18:21:21
URL: http://deniseschuberg.blogg.se/
Postat av: LouiseHultman

Tack,detsamma. Allt bra?:)

2009-12-27 @ 18:26:19
URL: http://knashultman.blogg.se/
Postat av: ESSEM, Selena

Sv' Haha

2009-12-27 @ 18:30:05
URL: http://essems.blogg.se/
Postat av: Mellis

Sv: haha, good for you :D tänkte bli jurist men orkar inte studera ^^

2009-12-27 @ 19:02:41
URL: http://mellblomman.blogg.se/
Postat av: pimpXprincess

Svar: Tack detsamma!

2009-12-27 @ 19:22:33
URL: http://pimpxprincess.blogg.se/
Postat av: Felicia - tävling som avgörs på julafton!

ville bara säga det att, din blogg är riktigt bra! :)

2009-12-27 @ 19:24:44
URL: http://felicialinneaamanda.blogg.se/
Postat av: maja

sv: ja, cityakuten va absolut inte de bästa i slutet. man kände sig lite ledsen när man fick reda på att de va sista säsongen, men ärligt talat va de lika bra, annars hade de slutat i botten.

2009-12-27 @ 22:50:44
URL: http://twinut.blogg.se/
Postat av: SARA

Tack det samma!

2009-12-27 @ 22:50:49
URL: http://aamaziing.blogg.se/
Postat av: Anna

sv: tack detsamma :)

2009-12-28 @ 00:20:14
URL: http://annaahellgren.blogg.se/
Postat av: matilda

Hoppas du får en jättebra dag:*

2009-12-28 @ 02:53:02
URL: http://maatilda.blogg.se/
Postat av: amanda

sv: har inte shoppat än, men tack eller något. :)

fin blogg föresten!

2009-12-28 @ 03:05:22
URL: http://amandawir.blogg.se/
Postat av: d e n i s e

haha aha!:D

2009-12-28 @ 16:03:51
URL: http://deniseschuberg.blogg.se/
Postat av: juliairene

kanske är så..

har du sett den?

2009-12-28 @ 16:07:30
URL: http://juliairene.blogg.se/
Postat av: Sebbe

vad har du för nyårslöfte? =)

kramar!

2009-12-28 @ 21:47:45
URL: http://lookstylish.blogg.se/
Postat av: Natalie - It's all about attitude

vilken snygg blogg du har :D

gillar headern och du skriver bra!



ta hand om dig nu =) kram

2009-12-29 @ 00:16:37
URL: http://nataliedahlberg.blogg.se/
Postat av: pelle

Är dina päron också ständiga bilbytare alltså? ;D



hoppas du har det fint i snöiga sverige också.

2009-12-30 @ 15:22:36
URL: http://pellespersonliga.se
Postat av: valentinaa,

fin blogg du har :)

2010-01-09 @ 20:52:17
URL: http://bebbolita.blogg.se/

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